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[16 Jun 2005|09:04pm] |
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Oh my it has been so long since I have been online and updated this journal! I miss having a life that gave me time to do this! Things absolutely suck and I never in my life thought I'd say this but Being Happy has become a chore. I think I am going crazy and am almost there. I think I am OCD and am still obsessive about Incubus. I think I use all these things as mechanisms to keep me ok from my chaotic life. Life sucks dick.....
But YAY its summer but Im a dumb ass and chose to go to summer school because I needed that extra thing to make life HARDER. But anyways maybe I'll have more time to go on now. Oh yes and since I haven't been online in months I just read something... DID CAROLYN AND BRANDON BREAK UP?
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| Our Time Is Running Out |
[09 Apr 2005|09:48am] |
I have not been online in such a long time, which means I have not updated in such a long time. But whenever I have a minute here and there I will play around with my pitures so I thought I'd share them with you all. Some are of me, some are from a long time ago and some may be of you!
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| GibsonSGIncubus: the thought of ur memory drives me to originate |
[22 Mar 2005|06:45pm] |
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Wow! I have not updated in a really long time! School has eaten me up and consumed all of my time!
NEW EUROPEAN FESTIVAL DATES
Incubus has announced European Festival dates. Incubus will not be playing any U.S. dates.
And what the hell is up with that? ^
No U.S. tour dates? WTF?! I have over $100 saved for one of their concerts.... Incubus babies you are NOT making me happy!
But anyways, I have been so o the edge lately I have no clue why... and today Im so tired I almost fell asleep on the treadmill and why is it still raining here? It needs to stop before Spring Break or I will flip! :(
But I promise Im not always in such a negative pissy mood! ;P
Well, I love you all and decided that I need new music ASAP.... if anyone would like to burn me shit that they like just out of the kindness of their heart's that would make me SUPER happy :)
Oh yes.. Im sorry to all those people who were used to seeing my comments every update and then abruptly stopped.... school is a bitch and I am a dork and study and have a 4.0 ..... YUCK!
Oh yes, one other thing! Travis Barker of Blink 182 and his wife have a reality show about them premiring on April 5th I believe.... I will never miss an episode! Anyways.. I love you all like a fat kid loves cake!
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| Come On Let Me Hold You, Touch You, Feel You Always... Kiss You, Taste You, All Night Always.... |
[26 Feb 2005|09:08pm] |
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Post a story, a secret, a confession, a threat, a fear, a love - anything. Be sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post as many times as you'd like, and then put this in your LJ to see what your friends (and perhaps others who you don't even realize read your LJ) have to say. Thanks.
Thank you loves <3
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| R.I.P Blink 182 |
[22 Feb 2005|04:47pm] |
Hiatus
2/22/2005 11:39:00 AM - by cgeorggin
"For over a decade, Blink-182 has toured, recorded and done non-stop promotion all while trying to balance relationships with family and friends.
To that end, the band has decided to go on an indefinite hiatus to spend some time enjoying the fruits of their labors with their loved ones. While there is no set plan for the band to begin working together again, no one knows what tomorrow may bring."
NO!!!!! I think Im going to crawl in a corner and die now! Im am seriously sobbing right now and my hands are shaking and I can't believe it! They were my very first concert, I got pit and went broke doing so.... Mark was like 4 feet away from where I stood. I have so many amazing memories that involve them and my beautiful Ava..... most involving us laughing, crying and getting naked. I hope they do a final tour at least. I can't stop crying!
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| Hey Shorty It's Your Birfday Werre Gonna Part Like It's Your Birfday...... |
[15 Feb 2005|10:22pm] |
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Um... Today is the most AMAZING DAY EVER! Would you like to know why? Well if you don't too bad I'm going to tell you anyways! ;P IT'S BRANDON BOYD'S BIRTHDAY YES! My baby boy is 29! He's all grown up! LOL Woah I feel like a horrible person, I just realized I never updated for Kilmores birthday (January 21) HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY KILMORE!!!
The Birthday Boy:
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| You Are a Fingernail Running Down the Chalkboard I Thought I'd Left in Third Grade |
[29 Jan 2005|08:20pm] |
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These past few weeks have made me realize that Im just a very sad person. I can't think of a time where I wasn't interiorly sad. Maybe the word is depressed? I just feel so lonely, and empty. I don't like being hollow, it's my defense mechanism against being hurt but it is hurting me. And it seems like no one understands.. I almost feel like Im mourning a death... I have to be mourning something because no one should cry this much. I try so hard to be my idea of perfect, I try to keep it all together, I try not to let things affect me, I try not to let myself be sad... I don't know how to stop it, like i said before I can't think of a time I wasn't this way. My mom is the only person who sees threw it... according to her Im drowning in myself, and all my pressures and high expectations and sadness... how sad..
Yeah That was a little something that I thought I needed to get out of me before I go crazy... thank god for Incubus or else I would die... sorry for this emo entry....
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| When it comes... it comes abrupt and it feels...... |
[21 Jan 2005|07:35pm] |
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Woah, I thought I learned what to NOT do this time...I didn't not want to be in this type of situation again, but no ladies and gentlemen I have done it yet again. I have killed one of my best friends again... I don't even know how! Last year I learned the hard way about 3-way situations and your girlfriend's boyfriend... and I knew I never wanted it to happen again.... at all costs. But damnit somehow I did it again and Im crushing someones feelings like a bug, and everyone say's it is not my fault but I can't help but think I must be doing something wrong. I was so determined to not be in this again, I tried so how to avoid him so it would not cause trouble, and when veryone speculated that he liked me I stopped all contact with him for a long period of time. I just don't get it. All I know is my girl is crying and I couldn't feel more guilty.... and on a lighter note
I have been having such unusual conversations with my mom lately. We determined we are both done with life and we have done our jobs so we are both going to die next year but Im not allowed to die before her so I guess I have to wait it out ;P And when I told her..... HAHAH Maybe I should not say that nevermind. Well, thank you for listening to my little rant.... love you all and hope everyone has a great weekend :)
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| I love my girls! |
[02 Jan 2005|09:48pm] |
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HAYDEN hottie10: oh my god i'm certain i'm in love with you right now. will you have my babies?
Sinner2289: I have been waiting for you to ask me that question forever!
HAYDEN hottie10: hahhah YESSSSSSSSSSSSS.
HAYDEN hottie10: let's get married while were at it, or else my mom won't support us
Sinner2289: Yippy Im excited! When shall we start?
HAYDEN hottie10: i don't know, hows about.... like... mabye now?
HAYDEN hottie10: unless your busy, cuz the 13th is good for me too
Sinner2289: No...I need time to prepare! I need to look super hot for this
Sinner2289: So the 13th is good for me to
HAYDEN hottie10: uhm alright. well how many babies are we gonna have and will it be before or after the wedding?
Sinner2289: I think we should have honeymoon babies
HAYDEN hottie10: alright
HAYDEN hottie10: is one of them going to be mexican?
Sinner2289: Mexican? How would that happen?
HAYDEN hottie10: uhm. duh. i'm part black.
HAYDEN hottie10: everybody knows that.
HAYDEN hottie10: i dont want any mexican babies anymore.
Sinner2289: Ok
HAYDEN hottie10: just black. like me.
Sinner2289: I did not think it was a good idea in the first place
Sinner2289: Yes, then it will fit in better
Sinner2289: Black babies for sure!
HAYDEN hottie10: WERD. then it can be part of hte gangsterrr nation with me. that would be good
Sinner2289: Hey...what would it be apart of with me?
HAYDEN hottie10: well...
HAYDEN hottie10: do you want to join the gangsterr nation too?
HAYDEN hottie10: i mean, i might be able to get you a trial membrship or something
Sinner2289: Hmmmm.....Im not sure is it worth it?
HAYDEN hottie10: i don't know. depends. are you going to be paying annually or monthly. theres different packages. duh.
Sinner2289: Im sorry..I should have known!
HAYDEN hottie10: GOD!.
Sinner2289: Im so stupid....you are the only one with brains here!
Sinner2289: GOD YOU SHOULD KNOW THIS!
HAYDEN hottie10: GAWSH OKAY I'M SORRY I'M TRYING TO SLEEP HERE. IM NOT A MACHINE!
Sinner2289: Oh Im sorry love
Sinner2289: We both are going to need some rest if we want to make these babies the first try
Sinner2289: But I won't mind going at it again ;-)
HAYDEN hottie10: haha alright. ay ay captain!
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I tried to be perfect but nothing was worth it
I don't believe it makes me real
I thought it'd be easy but no one believes me
I meant all the things that I said
if you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
just to see if it would show
that I'm trying to let you know
that I'm better off on my own
this place is so empty
my thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
sometimes it's so crazy that nothing can save me
but it's the only thing that I have
if you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
just to see if it would show
that I'm trying to let you know
that I'm better off on my own
I tried to be perfect it just wasn't worth it
nothing could ever be so wrong
it's hard to believe me
it never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along
if you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
just to see if it would show
that I'm trying to let you know
that I'm better off on my own
Woah, that basically described how I have been feeling the past two weeks. I've been trying to do so much and deal with my feelings and it just wasn't worth it. I have been having little break downs and I have been VERY tempted... I have been psycho. Well, the main probably is boys...I don't get them! This week them boys have told me they thought I was insane, too skinny, and that they would have sex with me...I don't ever hear of an in between, like a boy wanting to go out with me. Wow, boys suck but you got to love them!
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| XxJUSTxAxGIRLxx: u are so not lesbo |
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Sinner2289: Yeah, this whole Ben and John thing is just a huge cover up
Sinner2289: Because he's really gay too, he uses me Ali and Katie as a cover up
Sinner2289: Because all along I've been in love with you
Sinner2289: You know?
XxJUSTxAxGIRLxx: u finally came out and told me
XxJUSTxAxGIRLxx: inew this day would come
XxJUSTxAxGIRLxx: i was just waiting
Sinner2289: Damn, was I that obvious?
Sinner2289: Crap! I thought I had this whole thing covered up and everything!
XxJUSTxAxGIRLxx: haha nope u are just way to obvios we all new it was cuming
Sinner2289: Aw, now I'm sad.....I was really hoping I wasn't acting all lesbianish all the time....I tried so hard not to touch you or talk to you too much
Sinner2289: I didn't want to give my secret away
XxJUSTxAxGIRLxx: its ok i wont tell neone
Sinner2289: Oh, I owe you so much thank you!
XxJUSTxAxGIRLxx: haha
XxJUSTxAxGIRLxx: yes u do cuz i could jsut make the rumors flow
Sinner2289: You could....it would be horrible...because then all the butch chicks will come after me instead of the hot straight ones like yourself.....I like them better like that
XxJUSTxAxGIRLxx: hahaha
XxJUSTxAxGIRLxx: o man bre ur funny
Sinner2289: OMG
Sinner2289: That was fantastic
Um, Jillian, I'm in love with you, please don't tell Richard ;P
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| Life is short you're capable |
[12 Nov 2004|09:57pm] |
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So... if anyone including myself thought there was drama going on with me and boys before it's nothing compared to what is going on now. My once triangle with boys became an octagon or something of the sort, which by the way was not due to me. Somehow I always happen to get in situations where I find a guy that I like and a best friend likes them too, and then the guy likes us both, but my situation is a bit more complicated...there are about 4 more people involved and 1 more then I had originally thought. Well, enough of that, it's bringing me down, Im not sure how to feel really because Im a chick and feelings are confusing. I HATE THIS, why can't I alone be good enough?! Confused? Yeah me too, but I thought I'd try to share a bit of my drama for you all, just in case you didn't have enough of your own ;p
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| In my fantasy.... |
[29 Oct 2004|07:00pm] |
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Wow I have not updated in FOREVER! Well, I feel like I haven't been on this planet in sometime. I have changed a lot in such a short period of time it's insane! Im pretty damn happy, just really confused about things... I hate being caught in a triangle, boys make things complicated. I love my friends with all my heart *cough* that means you :) If you really have not spoken to me in a bit then I have a hell of alot of new stories to tell! SO MANY STORIES! Most of you won't believe half of them, but you don't have to. Lets just say Im really comfortable with my nudity and I have done a few things I have never done before :) On a semi-sad note volleyball is ending soon, I don't know what I will do with myself without it... I may do wrestling..yes, wrestling if my special SOMEONE can do it! School is pretty dull, It;s after school and really early in the morning with him that are fun ;) Im still loving my Incubus they are amazing as ever except I never have time tp listen to them anymore. Homecoming was pretty chill, just a LITTLE weird.. if we talk often you know why. Oh yeah, I have been having breakdowns all the time now. Sometimes they start with me hysterical laughing to hysterical crying, or the start with crying, and during both situtions I can't hold myself up, I can't breath, and I shake. It's a little scary to others and really embarrasing to me.. I never cry. I think maybe it is a build up of emotions or bad memories or something of the sort.. I would like to think Im not going crazy but you never know.
In my fantasy, you look good entwined
In my hair and skin and spit and sweat and spilled red wine
You’re my deep secret
I’m your Pantomime
I’ll just move my hands I’ll promise you’ll see what I mean
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I can't believe it! How come everyone else get's to meet them and I don't! Everyone has seen him and I haven't! It's starting to piss me off! Volleyball has been fun, but it is getting a bit more difficult. BRECHT CAME BACK! YAY! Im so happy to see him! Classes have been hard, PE is going to be difficult, and I've met a few really cool guys this week. But unfortunately things are very on off, I'm too lazy to type all my problems and i know most people really wouldn't appreciate it so I'll keep it short! I miss so many of you and I love you all! IM ME: Sinner2289! I hate feeling alone...........
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| Under My Umbrella... Im An Accomplished Exile. |
[29 Aug 2004|09:21pm] |
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Hey, what's up my Loves? Well, I haven't updated in a while so I thought I best do so now! Hmmm....I don't know what to say I have Incubus on the brain. I went to the beach today, but Im going through a self conscious stage so it wasn't much fun :( I FEEL UGLY, it's the normal for me so nothing new, I always seem to get upset when I go to the beach with my mom (Don't tell, but somehow I always end up in tears :( ) Im just a loser that.I met a "guy friend" of my moms. He had the most adorable kid I have ever seen, with such a huge personality! Yeah it's really weird when someone you don't know is making sex references of the past with my mom, I was a bit uncomfortable. But nevermind that... I love you all and am happythat scholl is starting so I can see everyone again :) I made the JV Volleyball team I'm really happy about that, it's a good way to start the year! Well, Im bored so call my cell (744-6412) or IM me Sinner2289 :) I Love You <3
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| My Problem Is You Make Me Melt And I Don't Want To Be Frozen Anymore |
[19 Aug 2004|02:51pm] |
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Last night was the Incubus concert....It was amazing to say the least! The seats sucked but they gave my dad Ava and I a good laugh. Next time for sure we are getting pitt...I don't care if I have to wait outside until midnight the day before you can pre order tickets! Brandon was SO HOTT and took off his shirt.......what a guy....Jose's solo was so long but kick ass so it didn't matter and Flea the bassist from The Red Hot Chili Peppers had this really cool trumpet solo in the middle of Vitamin and in the end of Summer Romance Brandon somehow incorporated The Milkshake Song!! They didn't play Stellar...too bad...but they played their Drive remix....which is cool. Then Brandon said it was their last song thanked LA and they did A Certain Shade Of Green....and left the stage after he worshipped the crowd and we, of course, worshipped him back! After Ava and I and the rest of the crowd screamed their hearts out for them to come back (Ava and I with our "Oh Gods" and "Uno Mas") Brandon came back out and acoustically did a sing along to Sponge Bob Square Pants, and then Pantomime. Then the rest of the band came out and finished the show with Pardon me!!! YES!!!
Megalomaniac / Nice to Know You / Idiot Box / Just a Phase / Priceless / Beware Criminal / Wish You Were Here / Here in My Room / Drive (Remix) / Hip-hop Jam + Vitamin + Trumpet/Guitar Jam + Percussion Jam + Jose's Solo / Pistola / Agoraphobia / Summer Romance (w/ Milkshake Song) / Talk Shows on Mute / Sick, Sad Little World / A Certain Shade of Green // Spongebob Theme / Pantomime / The Warmth / Pardon Me
The night was Ava and I dancing like freaks singing our hearts out and almost crying to one of our favorite bands who were absolutely amazing!!! I LOVE YOU AVA WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL!! You are my love and you and I can be whoever we want to be....I care so much about you, you are more to me than a sister, or a best friend, you are like a another half of me, I can't explain it...but I LOVE YOU <3
I LOVE INCUBUS <3 They bring people together.....that's what music does, it unifies people which is the beauty of it! God I love music!
Oh yes...very belated...but this is the only ic Ava and I took at the Blink 182/ No Doubt concert!
I LOVE YOU AVA
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| shoRtrAGicEnding: I love you |
[01 Aug 2004|09:59pm] |
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Today = A weird chain of events
1. My mom asked me to go shopping with her (She hates shopping with me because I don't like the girly clothes she does.....and I hate shopping and buying things)
2.My mom put my make up on me (She normally could care less about how I look)
3.This big black man rolls down his car window in the car sitting next to us in the parking lot and asks my mom how old she was....when she answered she was 35 he said she looked great for her age and that her and I looked the same age
4. My mom and I had a convo about how sex affects and distorts relationships with potentials significant others
5. The woman working in the Body shop gogled at the fact that my mom and I were mother and daughter.
6. A gay couple came up to my mom and I thanking us and said that we make old men happy (which I guess is good because we all have grandpas right?)
7. My mom and I snuck upstairs and watched a movie :)
Today was really odd and a load of fun! Comment on my journal bitches! My last entry only had 5 comments! :(
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